1 00:00:12,357 --> 00:00:15,291 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:15,325 --> 00:00:21,918 ♪ 3 00:00:21,952 --> 00:00:23,264 [Lucas] Being here gave me 4 00:00:23,299 --> 00:00:25,404 the opportunity to reflect upon my life, 5 00:00:25,439 --> 00:00:27,234 and what I found was incredible. 6 00:00:27,268 --> 00:00:29,926 For me, there's something bigger going on here. 7 00:00:29,960 --> 00:00:31,686 There's a point where you just got to go. 8 00:00:31,721 --> 00:00:35,138 [Mitch] I have a lot of anxiety not knowing if my mom is okay. 9 00:00:35,173 --> 00:00:37,451 She was diagnosed with brain cancer, 10 00:00:37,485 --> 00:00:39,694 and I know in my heart I need to go see her. 11 00:00:39,729 --> 00:00:42,007 [Alan] So I guess I'm gonna just keep driving on. 12 00:00:42,042 --> 00:00:43,629 I'm not real big into quitting. 13 00:00:43,664 --> 00:00:47,081 [Sam] Absolutely no part of me is tapping out. That's a fact. 14 00:00:47,116 --> 00:00:48,669 [Alan] They'll either come and get me one day 15 00:00:48,703 --> 00:00:51,258 and say, "Okay, you're done. You can stop now." 16 00:00:51,292 --> 00:00:53,156 Or they'll medevac me out of here. 17 00:00:53,191 --> 00:00:54,985 [Sam] I'm a tough Nebraska dude. 18 00:00:55,020 --> 00:00:57,505 I'm not quitting. I'm staying here no matter what. 19 00:00:58,610 --> 00:01:00,577 [Brant] This is gonna be a bitch. 20 00:01:00,612 --> 00:01:02,648 [Chris] We have to film it, and we're totally alone. 21 00:01:02,683 --> 00:01:04,098 [Dustin] Nobody knows what it's like here 22 00:01:04,133 --> 00:01:05,789 except for the ten guys out here doing it. 23 00:01:05,824 --> 00:01:06,790 Time to get shelter. 24 00:01:06,825 --> 00:01:08,206 tin] There's nobody here but me. 25 00:01:08,240 --> 00:01:10,104 [Lucas] It's just so hard doing this alone. 26 00:01:10,139 --> 00:01:12,141 [Josh] I'm scared to death right now. 27 00:01:12,175 --> 00:01:13,452 [Alan] I feel like I'm starving. 28 00:01:13,487 --> 00:01:14,729 [wolf howls] 29 00:01:14,764 --> 00:01:15,903 [animal growling] 30 00:01:15,937 --> 00:01:17,007 [Mitch] Pretty sure I just saw a cougar. 31 00:01:17,042 --> 00:01:18,664 [Wayne] Oh, [bleep]. 32 00:01:18,699 --> 00:01:21,702 [man] The last man standing wins $500,000. 33 00:01:21,736 --> 00:01:23,738 I don't want to go home. I want to win. 34 00:01:23,773 --> 00:01:25,499 [Wayne] This is the chance in a lifetime, 35 00:01:25,533 --> 00:01:28,122 but it's not worth dying over. 36 00:01:30,711 --> 00:01:38,615 ♪ 37 00:01:59,774 --> 00:02:01,604 This is the worst wind. 38 00:02:01,638 --> 00:02:05,470 I'm just trying to get things picked up, but... 39 00:02:05,504 --> 00:02:07,403 holy crap. 40 00:02:07,437 --> 00:02:10,164 I'm used to high winds, but this is nuts. 41 00:02:10,199 --> 00:02:12,097 This is crazy nuts. 42 00:02:13,581 --> 00:02:15,411 Holy cow. 43 00:02:20,726 --> 00:02:22,245 No, this is too bad. 44 00:02:22,280 --> 00:02:23,177 Okay, uh... 45 00:02:26,318 --> 00:02:28,009 Time to get shelter. 46 00:02:28,044 --> 00:02:29,942 Time to get to shelter. Okay. 47 00:02:32,980 --> 00:02:37,847 What the--this is not me being dramatic at all. 48 00:02:37,881 --> 00:02:39,883 This is not-- 49 00:02:39,918 --> 00:02:41,989 I am not making this up. 50 00:02:42,023 --> 00:02:44,578 The wind is literally blowing me over. 51 00:02:48,478 --> 00:02:50,825 Holy freaking cow. 52 00:02:57,522 --> 00:03:05,426 ♪ 53 00:03:16,886 --> 00:03:19,785 [wind howling] 54 00:03:23,962 --> 00:03:26,067 It just keeps getting worse and worse. 55 00:03:28,967 --> 00:03:30,555 These winds are coming off of the Pacific 56 00:03:30,589 --> 00:03:33,523 and just ripping at my shelter. 57 00:03:42,532 --> 00:03:44,879 And I live in tornado country, 58 00:03:44,914 --> 00:03:48,124 so I know what it's like to be around high winds, 59 00:03:48,158 --> 00:03:51,265 but this is insane. This is a whole new caliber. 60 00:04:12,148 --> 00:04:13,977 It's just getting worse. 61 00:04:14,012 --> 00:04:15,220 It's just-- [groans] 62 00:04:19,224 --> 00:04:22,503 At this point, I've lost all passion for being out here. 63 00:04:24,333 --> 00:04:27,508 I have no enthusiasm for any of this anymore. 64 00:04:29,614 --> 00:04:32,444 This place has just beaten the crap out of me. 65 00:04:34,584 --> 00:04:36,241 I'm starving. 66 00:04:36,276 --> 00:04:40,314 Mentally I've just been zonked just from being solo. 67 00:04:40,349 --> 00:04:42,696 Seven weeks. 68 00:04:42,730 --> 00:04:44,629 I've been out here seven weeks. 69 00:04:48,115 --> 00:04:50,842 This is the toughest thing I've ever had to do in my life. 70 00:04:52,947 --> 00:04:54,570 It's just insane. 71 00:04:57,227 --> 00:05:00,300 This place has just driven me into the ground 72 00:05:00,334 --> 00:05:02,440 like I never thought it could, 73 00:05:09,412 --> 00:05:11,759 and things aren't gonna get any better from here. 74 00:05:11,794 --> 00:05:14,969 It's only gonna get colder and more miserable. 75 00:05:16,488 --> 00:05:20,872 And meanwhile, I've got this beautiful wife with a baby 76 00:05:20,906 --> 00:05:23,323 in her belly ready to, you know... 77 00:05:25,359 --> 00:05:27,948 She's partway into her third trimester now. 78 00:05:32,297 --> 00:05:33,781 I've been out here for so long, 79 00:05:33,816 --> 00:05:34,817 you know? 80 00:05:34,851 --> 00:05:35,990 It's like... 81 00:05:38,372 --> 00:05:39,960 You just forget-- 82 00:05:39,994 --> 00:05:41,686 man, you forget everything. 83 00:05:45,966 --> 00:05:47,243 Ugh. 84 00:06:00,808 --> 00:06:08,713 ♪ 85 00:06:14,304 --> 00:06:15,858 [Alan] The weather has just been terrible. 86 00:06:15,892 --> 00:06:20,000 It's been high winds-- hurricane force at times, 87 00:06:20,034 --> 00:06:22,761 65-mile-an-hour gusts, 88 00:06:22,796 --> 00:06:26,420 and it just reaffirms the power 89 00:06:26,455 --> 00:06:30,528 that weather and the tide has on your life and your decisions. 90 00:06:30,562 --> 00:06:32,909 I haven't eaten much in days. 91 00:06:32,944 --> 00:06:35,947 This morning, I felt like I would have a shot 92 00:06:35,981 --> 00:06:37,569 at getting some real food, 93 00:06:37,604 --> 00:06:39,468 but no luck there. 94 00:06:39,502 --> 00:06:42,332 We've got a pretty heavy rainstorm happening, 95 00:06:42,367 --> 00:06:45,508 so no food again today, which is kind of a bummer. 96 00:06:48,753 --> 00:06:50,340 I'm just not into getting wet 97 00:06:50,375 --> 00:06:55,242 and not into getting cold if I don't have to, 98 00:06:55,276 --> 00:06:57,278 and there's really nothing-- 99 00:06:57,313 --> 00:06:58,728 nothing going on. 100 00:06:58,763 --> 00:07:01,766 I stuck my pot out the door to catch some rainwater. 101 00:07:04,216 --> 00:07:05,494 I'm getting a little low on water. 102 00:07:05,528 --> 00:07:06,736 I haven't done a fire in-- 103 00:07:06,771 --> 00:07:09,083 there hasn't been a use to. No purpose. 104 00:07:11,223 --> 00:07:14,226 I haven't taped anything today, 'cause there's nothing to do. 105 00:07:14,261 --> 00:07:17,885 There's nothing to tape other than me just sitting here. 106 00:07:17,920 --> 00:07:21,095 That's--that's it. 107 00:07:21,130 --> 00:07:22,683 I just sit here. 108 00:07:24,444 --> 00:07:27,688 My shelter is not even big enough to sit up in, 109 00:07:27,723 --> 00:07:29,069 about half of it, 110 00:07:29,103 --> 00:07:31,761 and the other half, you can sit up in. 111 00:07:31,796 --> 00:07:34,108 None of it you can stand up in, 112 00:07:34,143 --> 00:07:36,628 and it's just long enough for me to lay down in, 113 00:07:36,663 --> 00:07:41,944 so it's--it's about as confined as you can get, you know? 114 00:07:41,978 --> 00:07:46,086 And being in here day after day after day, 115 00:07:46,120 --> 00:07:50,262 the isolation has just been terrible, 116 00:07:50,297 --> 00:07:51,505 but... 117 00:07:53,852 --> 00:07:56,061 We'll see how it shakes out. 118 00:07:57,477 --> 00:08:05,381 ♪ 119 00:08:24,573 --> 00:08:27,817 [Sam] This storm is the worst. 120 00:08:27,852 --> 00:08:30,717 This wind hasn't stopped just pounding. 121 00:08:34,652 --> 00:08:37,206 I didn't get any sleep last night, it seemed. 122 00:08:37,240 --> 00:08:38,414 I just-- 123 00:08:40,278 --> 00:08:41,693 The wind and the rain, 124 00:08:41,728 --> 00:08:43,764 it was so loud, 125 00:08:43,799 --> 00:08:46,733 just shaking the tarp like crazy. 126 00:08:49,563 --> 00:08:51,772 I threw my raingear over my sleeping bag 127 00:08:51,807 --> 00:08:54,257 just in case any rain was dripping in, 128 00:08:54,292 --> 00:08:55,914 so that helped a little bit, I think, 129 00:08:55,949 --> 00:08:58,848 so at least I'm pretty dry. 130 00:09:01,299 --> 00:09:04,371 Man, I just-- 131 00:09:04,405 --> 00:09:06,960 I can't function mentally in this state. 132 00:09:06,994 --> 00:09:10,135 Like, I can't-- 133 00:09:10,170 --> 00:09:13,518 I can't think of what to do. 134 00:09:13,553 --> 00:09:15,693 I'm not sharp when I'm, 135 00:09:15,727 --> 00:09:17,004 like, you know, 136 00:09:17,039 --> 00:09:20,076 this sleep-deprived and when I'm this hungry. 137 00:09:25,806 --> 00:09:29,914 It's just a pounding, raging mess out there. 138 00:09:29,948 --> 00:09:31,674 I hate it. 139 00:09:44,135 --> 00:09:45,964 I'm just not quitting. 140 00:09:45,999 --> 00:09:48,380 I'm not giving up. 141 00:09:48,415 --> 00:09:51,314 I'm staying here no matter what. 142 00:09:51,349 --> 00:09:52,937 I will be here. 143 00:10:07,676 --> 00:10:10,644 [dramatic music] 144 00:10:10,679 --> 00:10:18,618 ♪ 145 00:10:46,128 --> 00:10:47,405 [Alan] So... 146 00:10:49,165 --> 00:10:50,995 No chow today, 147 00:10:51,029 --> 00:10:52,582 again. 148 00:10:52,617 --> 00:10:53,929 It is still raining. 149 00:10:53,963 --> 00:10:55,896 It's been raining pretty hard. 150 00:10:55,931 --> 00:10:59,175 My feet actually got very, very cold, and... 151 00:11:00,832 --> 00:11:04,491 So that's my main issue right now. 152 00:11:06,873 --> 00:11:08,529 We'll see how that goes. 153 00:11:11,084 --> 00:11:13,742 The woods are kind of merciless. 154 00:11:13,776 --> 00:11:15,088 They just do what they do, 155 00:11:15,122 --> 00:11:19,886 and you either adapt to that or they'll take you. 156 00:11:19,920 --> 00:11:21,991 I guess I've kind of peaked out in a way. 157 00:11:22,026 --> 00:11:23,890 I've dipped my feet here. 158 00:11:23,924 --> 00:11:25,305 I didn't think about, honestly, 159 00:11:25,339 --> 00:11:28,446 about how long I could go doing this thing. 160 00:11:28,480 --> 00:11:32,277 I didn't know when I landed if I was gonna be here three days. 161 00:11:32,312 --> 00:11:35,039 ♪ 162 00:11:35,073 --> 00:11:37,144 We got dropped out of helicopters and boats 163 00:11:37,179 --> 00:11:39,871 and float planes and-- 164 00:11:39,906 --> 00:11:42,425 a pelican case full of camera gear, and they said, 165 00:11:42,460 --> 00:11:43,737 "Best of luck to you." 166 00:11:45,670 --> 00:11:48,708 So, this is home. 167 00:11:48,742 --> 00:11:51,572 We are here. This is crazy. 168 00:11:51,607 --> 00:11:53,885 I'm a complete lunatic. 169 00:11:53,920 --> 00:11:57,095 [Alan voice-over] It seems like just yesterday, you know? 170 00:11:58,338 --> 00:12:00,271 Just getting here. Getting started. 171 00:12:03,032 --> 00:12:05,345 There, it's on. 172 00:12:05,379 --> 00:12:08,520 I'm getting pretty dried out 173 00:12:08,555 --> 00:12:10,833 to the point I stopped filming with the other camera, 174 00:12:10,868 --> 00:12:12,662 and this one's frustrating. 175 00:12:12,697 --> 00:12:19,083 These cameras, that's a whole facet of this that I just-- 176 00:12:19,117 --> 00:12:21,326 I didn't realize how hard it would be to do all this 177 00:12:21,361 --> 00:12:23,777 and try to film it. 178 00:12:23,812 --> 00:12:26,400 "Go to British Columbia," they said. 179 00:12:26,435 --> 00:12:28,161 "It'll be fun. 180 00:12:28,195 --> 00:12:32,130 Oh, it's beautiful there. Abundant resources." 181 00:12:32,165 --> 00:12:33,304 ♪ 182 00:12:33,338 --> 00:12:35,996 This is day four, 183 00:12:36,031 --> 00:12:37,998 and I have this little stick. 184 00:12:38,033 --> 00:12:39,206 I've been... 185 00:12:42,175 --> 00:12:44,798 Marking in little notches... 186 00:12:46,627 --> 00:12:49,630 'Cause as we start getting into more days, I'll lose track, 187 00:12:49,665 --> 00:12:52,116 I'm sure. 188 00:12:52,150 --> 00:12:55,844 [Alan voice-over] You either learn to survive or you--you don't survive. 189 00:12:58,087 --> 00:13:00,365 There is no other "dog ate my homework, whoops, 190 00:13:00,400 --> 00:13:02,402 forgot to pay the light bill." 191 00:13:02,436 --> 00:13:04,404 You either figure out a way 192 00:13:04,438 --> 00:13:05,577 or you're toast. 193 00:13:05,612 --> 00:13:07,372 ♪ 194 00:13:07,407 --> 00:13:09,133 14 days. 195 00:13:09,167 --> 00:13:10,824 Cha-ching. 196 00:13:10,859 --> 00:13:12,826 You either do it or you don't. 197 00:13:14,276 --> 00:13:17,106 And then you move from survival to thrive-al. 198 00:13:17,141 --> 00:13:19,695 [sniffs] 199 00:13:19,729 --> 00:13:21,145 It's dry! 200 00:13:21,179 --> 00:13:22,732 Dry wood! 201 00:13:22,767 --> 00:13:24,182 [laughs] 202 00:13:24,217 --> 00:13:25,805 Dry! 203 00:13:25,839 --> 00:13:26,944 [French accent] This is impossible. 204 00:13:26,978 --> 00:13:28,531 I cannot work in this light. 205 00:13:28,566 --> 00:13:32,984 These conditions are not conducive for my-- 206 00:13:33,019 --> 00:13:34,744 my artistic juices. 207 00:13:35,849 --> 00:13:37,851 And so now it's just a-- 208 00:13:37,886 --> 00:13:39,577 it's time, really, 209 00:13:39,611 --> 00:13:41,890 is what you're looking at. 210 00:13:41,924 --> 00:13:43,236 ♪ 211 00:13:43,270 --> 00:13:45,479 I noticed this morning when I put my pants on, 212 00:13:45,514 --> 00:13:48,172 I have--I've lost a significant amount of weight. 213 00:13:48,206 --> 00:13:50,899 I could probably put two fists 214 00:13:50,933 --> 00:13:53,591 in there from my stomach to the waistband. 215 00:13:53,625 --> 00:13:56,732 ♪ 216 00:13:56,766 --> 00:13:57,767 Man, it's cold out here. 217 00:13:57,802 --> 00:13:59,769 I could cut diamonds with my nipples. 218 00:13:59,804 --> 00:14:01,944 ♪ 219 00:14:01,979 --> 00:14:05,914 Missing home, thinking about my babies, thinking about Mama. 220 00:14:05,948 --> 00:14:07,605 I want to kiss them, kiss their little forehead, 221 00:14:10,850 --> 00:14:12,886 kissWhat day is it?aces. 222 00:14:12,921 --> 00:14:14,888 The weather. 223 00:14:14,923 --> 00:14:18,719 The weather and the tide can-- 224 00:14:18,754 --> 00:14:21,170 can make or break you out here for sure. 225 00:14:21,205 --> 00:14:23,483 You know, we're here at the worst time of year, man. 226 00:14:23,517 --> 00:14:26,072 We're here in the dead middle of winter. 227 00:14:26,106 --> 00:14:27,521 Yeah, part of me's like, 228 00:14:27,556 --> 00:14:30,697 "Well, I'm ready to go here." 229 00:14:30,731 --> 00:14:32,492 I tell you, about day 40, 230 00:14:32,526 --> 00:14:34,908 psychological aspects 231 00:14:34,943 --> 00:14:38,739 started kicking in on this more than they have been. 232 00:14:38,774 --> 00:14:41,052 By then, you've done everything enough, 233 00:14:41,087 --> 00:14:44,573 and you're into that loop that everything slows way, 234 00:14:44,607 --> 00:14:46,609 way down, 235 00:14:46,644 --> 00:14:49,060 crawling, and that last gasping breath 236 00:14:49,095 --> 00:14:52,339 as you're spending that last bit of energy. 237 00:14:52,374 --> 00:14:53,858 It's the same old deal... 238 00:14:56,378 --> 00:14:57,897 Like playing a repeat button. 239 00:14:57,931 --> 00:14:59,243 It's just like, your life, 240 00:14:59,277 --> 00:15:02,487 my life, anybody's life, you get into a routine. 241 00:15:02,522 --> 00:15:04,524 You have a schedule. 242 00:15:04,558 --> 00:15:06,284 Mine involves limpets and seaweed 243 00:15:06,319 --> 00:15:08,252 and boiling water every day. 244 00:15:14,327 --> 00:15:15,328 You know, you just wonder, 245 00:15:15,362 --> 00:15:17,261 "Well, how long do I want to do this? 246 00:15:17,295 --> 00:15:18,607 "What is enough for me? 247 00:15:18,641 --> 00:15:22,059 "What is my finish line out here? 248 00:15:22,093 --> 00:15:23,163 "What am I looking for? 249 00:15:23,198 --> 00:15:25,579 "Have I found it? 250 00:15:25,614 --> 00:15:28,617 Have I done what I came out here to do?" 251 00:15:28,651 --> 00:15:31,206 My goal was to come out here and not die, 252 00:15:31,240 --> 00:15:32,586 so... 253 00:15:33,691 --> 00:15:34,588 I did that. 254 00:15:38,282 --> 00:15:41,941 I just feel totally separated from time, 255 00:15:41,975 --> 00:15:45,945 just like it's an ever-present moment. 256 00:15:50,328 --> 00:15:52,537 No past. 257 00:15:52,572 --> 00:15:54,367 No future. 258 00:15:54,401 --> 00:15:56,714 Just now. 259 00:15:56,748 --> 00:16:01,650 When you come and you stand alone... 260 00:16:03,755 --> 00:16:05,136 It's all very real. 261 00:16:06,862 --> 00:16:12,902 And I still, honestly, don't know how long I have in me here. 262 00:16:12,937 --> 00:16:14,835 I'm not trying to prove anything to anybody. 263 00:16:14,870 --> 00:16:17,183 I'm not trying to do this to say, 264 00:16:17,217 --> 00:16:19,047 "Hey, look, I'm the baddest man 265 00:16:19,081 --> 00:16:20,427 in the world," 266 00:16:20,462 --> 00:16:22,464 because I'm not. 267 00:16:22,498 --> 00:16:23,672 I'm just a guy. 268 00:16:23,706 --> 00:16:25,053 There's really nothing special about me. 269 00:16:25,087 --> 00:16:27,089 I'm just your regular guy. 270 00:16:28,539 --> 00:16:30,265 Yeah, 271 00:16:30,299 --> 00:16:32,370 I could just go home. 272 00:16:41,069 --> 00:16:44,037 Yeah,sic] 273 00:16:44,072 --> 00:16:52,011 ♪ 274 00:17:01,572 --> 00:17:04,471 [wind howling] 275 00:17:07,129 --> 00:17:08,165 [Sam] I'm dehydrated. 276 00:17:08,199 --> 00:17:10,615 I haven't food. 277 00:17:10,650 --> 00:17:12,997 I haven't slept in three nights. 278 00:17:17,691 --> 00:17:19,176 I'm just not feeling good. 279 00:17:33,604 --> 00:17:34,639 Ugh. 280 00:17:38,229 --> 00:17:40,818 I came out here to have an epic adventure, 281 00:17:40,852 --> 00:17:45,961 and it's turned out to be pretty crazy. 282 00:17:45,995 --> 00:17:49,654 Now, keep in mind, it doesn't necessarily mean fun 283 00:17:49,689 --> 00:17:51,208 all the time 284 00:17:51,242 --> 00:17:52,933 or painless, 285 00:17:52,968 --> 00:17:56,765 so I guess this does fit the bill. 286 00:17:56,799 --> 00:18:00,251 It just goes to show what can happen if you don't know 287 00:18:00,286 --> 00:18:04,600 the environment you're going into before you are in it. 288 00:18:04,635 --> 00:18:06,568 I've been in it for a long time. 289 00:18:08,501 --> 00:18:12,332 Landing on the island was, like, the est thing ever, 290 00:18:12,367 --> 00:18:13,989 'cause you're in this plane, 291 00:18:14,023 --> 00:18:15,818 and then I shook the pilot's hand, 292 00:18:15,853 --> 00:18:17,303 and then he's gone. 293 00:18:17,337 --> 00:18:20,306 Whoo-hoo! 294 00:18:20,340 --> 00:18:23,032 And you're just alone out there. 295 00:18:24,655 --> 00:18:26,174 Yeah! 296 00:18:30,350 --> 00:18:34,147 I feel like a mosquito in a nudist colony. 297 00:18:34,182 --> 00:18:36,149 So much work to do. 298 00:18:36,184 --> 00:18:40,119 [Sam voice-over] Instantly, it's just the coolest, most fun feeling, 299 00:18:40,153 --> 00:18:41,258 like, "Let's go get them." 300 00:18:41,292 --> 00:18:43,536 Bam! Just found a rope. 301 00:18:45,400 --> 00:18:49,507 And then in a few short minutes, it turns to, 302 00:18:49,542 --> 00:18:50,784 "Oh, man, this is-- 303 00:18:50,819 --> 00:18:52,717 "this is pretty wild. 304 00:18:52,752 --> 00:18:54,167 I don't know about this." 305 00:18:54,202 --> 00:18:55,410 It's just crazy. 306 00:18:55,444 --> 00:18:56,445 [Sam] Golly. 307 00:18:56,480 --> 00:18:59,068 Day five. 308 00:18:59,103 --> 00:19:01,761 Michael Jackson glove. 309 00:19:01,795 --> 00:19:04,729 This is all a marathon. It's not a sprint. 310 00:19:04,764 --> 00:19:07,111 It's not in any way, shape, or form. 311 00:19:07,146 --> 00:19:08,561 You don't need to rush. 312 00:19:08,595 --> 00:19:09,872 Timber. 313 00:19:09,907 --> 00:19:11,529 There was a lot to get accomplished. 314 00:19:13,221 --> 00:19:15,361 Bam. 315 00:19:15,395 --> 00:19:16,776 Dead something. 316 00:19:16,810 --> 00:19:18,778 I was kind of running around like a chicken 317 00:19:18,812 --> 00:19:20,400 with my head cut off. 318 00:19:20,435 --> 00:19:22,437 Oh, yeah. Oh. 319 00:19:22,471 --> 00:19:24,266 Bam! 320 00:19:24,301 --> 00:19:25,198 Salmon. 321 00:19:26,579 --> 00:19:29,029 [yawns] 322 00:19:29,064 --> 00:19:30,376 I think this is good for me. 323 00:19:30,410 --> 00:19:33,379 This is a good opportunity for me to really kind of go 324 00:19:33,413 --> 00:19:35,381 into myself and find... 325 00:19:37,728 --> 00:19:40,317 Find some kind of happiness out here while I'm alone 326 00:19:40,351 --> 00:19:41,559 or see if that's possible. 327 00:19:41,594 --> 00:19:43,216 All night long, baby. 328 00:19:43,251 --> 00:19:46,150 [birds calling] 329 00:19:48,704 --> 00:19:50,913 Day 23. 330 00:19:50,948 --> 00:19:53,951 ♪ 331 00:19:53,985 --> 00:19:56,919 I miss being around people on a daily basis. 332 00:19:56,954 --> 00:19:58,369 I miss my wife. 333 00:19:58,404 --> 00:20:00,026 Yeah, it's good. 334 00:20:02,408 --> 00:20:05,065 Eat your bull kelp, kids. 335 00:20:05,100 --> 00:20:06,791 Bam. 336 00:20:06,826 --> 00:20:10,795 I didn't know how hard it would be just not having enough food. 337 00:20:10,830 --> 00:20:13,177 I've never, ever been so hungry in my life. 338 00:20:13,212 --> 00:20:14,523 Whammo. 339 00:20:15,973 --> 00:20:17,388 Mousey feast. 340 00:20:17,423 --> 00:20:20,149 It's so weird how I'm changing mentally out here. 341 00:20:20,184 --> 00:20:23,187 I think I'm getting wiser out here, 342 00:20:23,222 --> 00:20:25,396 but there's absolutely no way 343 00:20:25,431 --> 00:20:28,675 to describe how you feel out here. 344 00:20:28,710 --> 00:20:31,989 It's the strangest, strangest feeling. 345 00:20:32,023 --> 00:20:34,163 At this point, you're anything but normal. 346 00:20:34,198 --> 00:20:36,856 I look terrible. Holy crap. 347 00:20:38,029 --> 00:20:40,031 What the heck? 348 00:20:40,066 --> 00:20:41,309 Wow. 349 00:20:41,343 --> 00:20:42,793 Not good mentally. 350 00:20:42,827 --> 00:20:45,968 I am not good in the head right now. 351 00:20:46,003 --> 00:20:50,387 Just how crazy this whole thing has been and how difficult it is 352 00:20:50,421 --> 00:20:54,908 and the fact that I'm just so isolated out here and that I-- 353 00:20:54,943 --> 00:20:57,256 I just want to speak to my wife, 354 00:20:57,290 --> 00:21:01,121 and I'm just getting the crap beat out of me out here. 355 00:21:01,156 --> 00:21:09,060 ♪ 356 00:21:42,335 --> 00:21:43,543 Okay, I'm-- 357 00:21:57,523 --> 00:21:59,179 Okay, I'm-- 358 00:22:11,502 --> 00:22:13,711 I'm gonna go to bed now. 359 00:22:28,623 --> 00:22:31,004 All my energy's just gone. 360 00:22:37,494 --> 00:22:39,875 I'm getting some weird seasickness thing 361 00:22:39,910 --> 00:22:43,500 from this tarp just banging against my head 362 00:22:43,534 --> 00:22:47,745 and just flapping all over the place. 363 00:22:47,780 --> 00:22:49,540 The noise, everything about it, 364 00:22:49,575 --> 00:22:51,335 the rain coming in. 365 00:22:53,441 --> 00:22:54,890 I'm just trying to... 366 00:22:59,826 --> 00:23:01,725 Ugh, man. 367 00:23:02,864 --> 00:23:04,659 I'm totally just depleted. 368 00:23:04,693 --> 00:23:06,661 I don't-- I don't have any energy. 369 00:23:14,289 --> 00:23:19,121 This is by far the worst set of weather I've gotten. 370 00:23:19,156 --> 00:23:21,020 It just sucks, every last bit of it. 371 00:23:21,054 --> 00:23:23,954 I'm totally worthless here in this tent. 372 00:23:23,988 --> 00:23:28,717 Oh, I don't know if I can make it another day out here. 373 00:23:28,752 --> 00:23:30,443 Not in this. 374 00:23:30,478 --> 00:23:32,307 I'm starving, 375 00:23:32,341 --> 00:23:35,310 but I can't go-- 376 00:23:35,344 --> 00:23:37,692 I just hate the thought of tapping out. 377 00:23:46,390 --> 00:23:49,358 [dramatic music] 378 00:23:49,393 --> 00:23:57,297 ♪ 379 00:24:28,881 --> 00:24:29,847 [man] Hey, guy. 380 00:24:29,882 --> 00:24:31,573 [Sam] Hey, there. 381 00:24:36,475 --> 00:24:40,340 [Sam voice-over] I totally got my chops handed to me by this place, 382 00:24:40,375 --> 00:24:41,790 but it's over. 383 00:24:41,825 --> 00:24:44,759 There's absolutely no way to describe the feeling 384 00:24:44,793 --> 00:24:48,038 after you've been in the woods solo for seven weeks. 385 00:24:48,072 --> 00:24:49,902 It's just the most bizarre thing. 386 00:24:49,936 --> 00:24:54,113 It's not like real life at all. 387 00:24:54,147 --> 00:24:56,425 I always just try to tough things out, 388 00:24:56,460 --> 00:25:01,776 but it's just been a slow, brutal decline 389 00:25:01,810 --> 00:25:04,710 of just losing passion for this, 390 00:25:04,744 --> 00:25:06,159 wanting to be out, 391 00:25:06,194 --> 00:25:09,887 wanting to be home taking care of my pregnant wife. 392 00:25:09,922 --> 00:25:12,476 She deserves to have me home at this point. 393 00:25:12,511 --> 00:25:15,583 I mean, she's going through one of the craziest times 394 00:25:15,617 --> 00:25:17,861 in her life with her first pregnancy. 395 00:25:17,895 --> 00:25:19,966 She deserves to have someone 396 00:25:20,001 --> 00:25:24,695 there to hold on to when times get really, really tough. 397 00:25:24,730 --> 00:25:27,629 She deserves it. 398 00:25:27,664 --> 00:25:29,700 I can't wait to see my wife again-- 399 00:25:29,735 --> 00:25:34,671 see how much larger she's gotten since I saw her last. 400 00:25:34,705 --> 00:25:36,569 It's gonna be the best part of all. 401 00:25:36,604 --> 00:25:38,191 Better than showering. 402 00:25:38,226 --> 00:25:40,124 Better than food. 403 00:25:40,159 --> 00:25:42,023 Just talking to my wife. 404 00:25:42,057 --> 00:25:44,301 It's gonna be awesome. 405 00:25:44,335 --> 00:25:46,096 Being out here is just a kick in the butt 406 00:25:46,130 --> 00:25:47,787 into adulthood, I think. 407 00:25:47,822 --> 00:25:50,549 It's totally grown me up tremendously, 408 00:25:50,583 --> 00:25:53,482 and I think it's gonna make me a better guy 409 00:25:53,517 --> 00:25:56,693 and a better husband and soon-to-be father. 410 00:25:58,211 --> 00:26:06,081 ♪ 411 00:26:17,058 --> 00:26:20,648 [Alan] So, it's the morning of the 56th day. 412 00:26:20,682 --> 00:26:26,861 I was just walking around, and I found another slug. 413 00:26:26,895 --> 00:26:28,379 It's like all of a sudden they're back. 414 00:26:28,414 --> 00:26:29,933 Here they are. 415 00:26:29,967 --> 00:26:31,797 Yeah, there he is. 416 00:26:31,831 --> 00:26:33,695 I thought they'd flown south for the winter 417 00:26:33,730 --> 00:26:35,766 because I quit seeing them. 418 00:26:35,801 --> 00:26:37,561 This is no average slug. 419 00:26:37,596 --> 00:26:40,012 That is a slug among slugs. 420 00:26:40,046 --> 00:26:42,186 That is the big daddy. 421 00:26:42,221 --> 00:26:44,016 Hello. 422 00:26:44,050 --> 00:26:46,708 We're gonna-- oh, here's another one! Look. 423 00:26:46,743 --> 00:26:49,677 Oh, my--just look at-- oh, man. 424 00:26:49,711 --> 00:26:51,437 This one is even bigger. 425 00:26:51,471 --> 00:26:53,681 Whoa. This is awesome. 426 00:26:53,715 --> 00:26:55,061 This is awesome. 427 00:26:55,096 --> 00:26:56,856 I have hit the honey hole. 428 00:26:56,891 --> 00:26:58,513 I wonder how many-- there's another one! 429 00:26:58,547 --> 00:26:59,997 Oh, could it be? Is it? 430 00:27:00,032 --> 00:27:03,035 Oh, it is. Hi there, fella. 431 00:27:03,069 --> 00:27:06,521 My prayers have been heard and answered. 432 00:27:06,555 --> 00:27:08,696 I will find them. I'll find more too. 433 00:27:10,283 --> 00:27:11,768 I know they're out there. 434 00:27:21,294 --> 00:27:23,469 I know you're out there. 435 00:27:23,503 --> 00:27:26,299 I can sense your presence. 436 00:27:26,334 --> 00:27:27,818 [sniffing] 437 00:27:29,613 --> 00:27:35,792 ♪ 438 00:27:35,826 --> 00:27:37,656 The best part 439 00:27:37,690 --> 00:27:39,796 of this journey here 440 00:27:39,830 --> 00:27:42,730 is further knowing yourself. 441 00:27:46,112 --> 00:27:47,389 The woods are spiritual, 442 00:27:47,424 --> 00:27:49,978 and they always have been for me, 443 00:27:50,013 --> 00:27:52,843 and I love it. 444 00:27:52,878 --> 00:27:57,123 You know, there's no rites of passage in our modern culture, 445 00:27:57,158 --> 00:28:00,989 and almost all people of the world 446 00:28:01,024 --> 00:28:03,509 had these rites of passage, 447 00:28:03,543 --> 00:28:04,752 and they were a method 448 00:28:04,786 --> 00:28:08,100 by which people could go out into the world 449 00:28:08,134 --> 00:28:10,516 when they're making their transition from a young person 450 00:28:10,550 --> 00:28:11,966 into an adult, 451 00:28:12,000 --> 00:28:15,763 do some task or spend some time alone, 452 00:28:15,797 --> 00:28:20,940 and the whole goal was to come back ready to be an adult, 453 00:28:20,975 --> 00:28:22,908 and part of what happened 454 00:28:22,942 --> 00:28:27,015 is self-examination-- a chance to know yourself. 455 00:28:27,050 --> 00:28:29,708 This will boil you down to your essence. 456 00:28:33,953 --> 00:28:35,161 And I'll tell you something. 457 00:28:35,196 --> 00:28:39,925 After several days of just living off seaweed, 458 00:28:39,959 --> 00:28:41,720 that was good to have a real meal. 459 00:28:41,754 --> 00:28:44,653 Yesterday was probably the hungriest I've ever been. 460 00:28:46,276 --> 00:28:54,146 ♪ 461 00:28:58,081 --> 00:29:00,324 [man] This is it. 462 00:29:00,359 --> 00:29:02,361 Choppers are coming out now. 463 00:29:02,395 --> 00:29:10,300 ♪ 464 00:29:12,647 --> 00:29:14,166 [Alan] I'll tell you, at this point 465 00:29:14,200 --> 00:29:17,652 I'm thinking I don't know how long I want to do this. 466 00:29:17,686 --> 00:29:19,274 How long I can do this. 467 00:29:19,309 --> 00:29:20,759 I could just go home. 468 00:29:26,040 --> 00:29:27,489 You know, me talking to myself, 469 00:29:27,524 --> 00:29:29,422 I'm asking myself, "What are your goals? 470 00:29:29,457 --> 00:29:32,460 "What is this that you're trying to do? 471 00:29:32,494 --> 00:29:34,393 What are you trying to prove here?" 472 00:29:34,427 --> 00:29:36,705 I just miss life. 473 00:29:36,740 --> 00:29:38,431 I miss all of it. 474 00:29:43,160 --> 00:29:46,819 100 over 80, so, lovely blood pressure. 475 00:29:46,854 --> 00:29:48,131 It's the lowest it's ever been. 476 00:29:48,165 --> 00:29:49,132 Yeah. 477 00:29:49,166 --> 00:29:51,928 Probably the seafood diet I'm on. 478 00:29:51,962 --> 00:29:54,482 [Alan voice-over] And I've pretty much just lived it day by day. 479 00:29:54,516 --> 00:29:57,071 I came out here, and I got into the rhythm of things 480 00:29:57,105 --> 00:29:59,832 and just did what I do in the woods, in any woods, 481 00:29:59,867 --> 00:30:01,006 in any situation. 482 00:30:01,040 --> 00:30:03,836 I just follow the same type of methodology 483 00:30:03,871 --> 00:30:05,631 that I've always followed. 484 00:30:05,665 --> 00:30:07,322 Can I keep doing this thing? 485 00:30:07,357 --> 00:30:09,877 Yeah, I think I could keep doing it. 486 00:30:09,911 --> 00:30:12,880 Before I came here, my wife asked me-- 487 00:30:12,914 --> 00:30:15,296 talking about my biggest fear-- 488 00:30:15,330 --> 00:30:17,194 and asked me what it was, 489 00:30:17,229 --> 00:30:19,093 and I said, "Failure." 490 00:30:19,127 --> 00:30:20,094 You know. 491 00:30:20,128 --> 00:30:22,061 And my wife said, 492 00:30:22,096 --> 00:30:24,477 "Well, what does that mean to you?" 493 00:30:24,512 --> 00:30:26,134 And I never had thought about it that way. 494 00:30:26,169 --> 00:30:31,381 I never quantified what a failure here would look like, 495 00:30:31,415 --> 00:30:34,280 but it wasn't about beating another person. 496 00:30:34,315 --> 00:30:38,250 It was about just coming here and pouring out what I had, 497 00:30:38,284 --> 00:30:40,666 and once I have done that, then it-- 498 00:30:40,700 --> 00:30:42,392 for me, that's my own victory. 499 00:30:45,947 --> 00:30:47,328 [man] So, Alan... 500 00:30:48,847 --> 00:30:50,262 We need to tell you something. 501 00:30:54,853 --> 00:30:57,821 [dramatic music] 502 00:30:57,856 --> 00:31:05,725 ♪ 503 00:31:14,148 --> 00:31:18,290 [Alan] Before I came here, my wife asked me my biggest fear 504 00:31:18,324 --> 00:31:22,052 and asked me what it was, and I said, "Failure." 505 00:31:22,087 --> 00:31:23,053 You know. 506 00:31:23,088 --> 00:31:25,021 And my wife said, 507 00:31:25,055 --> 00:31:27,437 "Well, what does that mean to you?" 508 00:31:27,471 --> 00:31:29,094 And I never had thought about it that way. 509 00:31:29,128 --> 00:31:34,306 I never quantified what a failure here would look like, 510 00:31:34,340 --> 00:31:37,274 but it wasn't about beating another person. 511 00:31:37,309 --> 00:31:41,244 It was about just coming here and pouring out what I had, 512 00:31:41,278 --> 00:31:43,039 and I once I have done that, 513 00:31:43,073 --> 00:31:45,489 then it--for me, that's my own victory. 514 00:31:47,595 --> 00:31:50,494 [man] So, Alan, we need to tell you something. 515 00:31:57,260 --> 00:32:00,297 You've outlasted everybody. 516 00:32:00,332 --> 00:32:02,230 Are you [bleep] me? 517 00:32:02,265 --> 00:32:03,783 For real? 518 00:32:03,818 --> 00:32:06,027 This is it? 519 00:32:06,062 --> 00:32:07,960 Oh! 520 00:32:07,995 --> 00:32:09,375 So soon? 521 00:32:09,410 --> 00:32:12,723 Gosh, I was working on a spring garden. 522 00:32:12,758 --> 00:32:14,829 I was thinking, "If I'm still here in the spring, 523 00:32:14,863 --> 00:32:16,831 this is gonna be-- this is gonna be difficult." 524 00:32:18,591 --> 00:32:19,661 Wow. 525 00:32:23,079 --> 00:32:24,183 Man. 526 00:32:27,600 --> 00:32:29,292 [man] What do you think? 527 00:32:29,326 --> 00:32:31,535 [laughs] I don't know what to think, man. 528 00:32:31,570 --> 00:32:35,125 That's just something else. 529 00:32:35,160 --> 00:32:37,403 Already? 530 00:32:37,438 --> 00:32:40,165 Huh. 531 00:32:40,199 --> 00:32:41,683 All right, let's burn this place down. 532 00:32:41,718 --> 00:32:43,547 [all laughing] 533 00:32:43,582 --> 00:32:45,722 You got--you got a lighter in your pocket? 534 00:32:45,756 --> 00:32:49,622 ♪ 535 00:32:49,657 --> 00:32:51,038 Holy crap. 536 00:32:53,281 --> 00:32:55,559 - What are you doing here? - Hey. 537 00:32:55,594 --> 00:32:57,458 - Hey, baby. - What are you doing? 538 00:33:12,991 --> 00:33:14,095 Hey. 539 00:33:17,685 --> 00:33:18,997 Wow. 540 00:33:19,031 --> 00:33:21,033 - Are you ready to go home? - Yeah. 541 00:33:21,068 --> 00:33:22,862 - Are you? - Yeah. 542 00:33:22,897 --> 00:33:24,485 - Are you sure? - Mm-hmm. 543 00:33:24,519 --> 00:33:28,144 Yeah, that was pretty-- 544 00:33:28,178 --> 00:33:30,525 just doesn't compare to home. 545 00:33:30,560 --> 00:33:33,114 - No. - It is nice, though. 546 00:33:33,149 --> 00:33:35,530 Yeah? Nice trails. 547 00:33:35,565 --> 00:33:37,739 - You want to go see my house? - I'd love to see it. Show me. 548 00:33:37,774 --> 00:33:39,879 Don't trip. This is really slick. 549 00:33:39,914 --> 00:33:41,812 - You go first. - No, you go first. 550 00:33:41,847 --> 00:33:43,331 That way if you slide, I'll catch you. 551 00:33:47,197 --> 00:33:49,682 - So this is it? - That's it. 552 00:33:49,717 --> 00:33:52,444 [Alan] This is my calendar stick. 553 00:33:52,478 --> 00:33:54,032 That's how I kept track of time. 554 00:33:54,066 --> 00:33:55,447 - Each day? - Yup. 555 00:33:55,481 --> 00:33:58,450 First thing every morning I'd get up, take my kukri, 556 00:33:58,484 --> 00:34:01,246 and I just lived to put a new notch in it. 557 00:34:01,280 --> 00:34:07,390 Each one represents overcoming something every day, 558 00:34:07,424 --> 00:34:09,806 and I know that was October 22nd. 559 00:34:09,840 --> 00:34:12,464 You know, I kept track. 560 00:34:12,498 --> 00:34:13,810 How many notches do you have? 561 00:34:13,844 --> 00:34:15,087 56. 562 00:34:15,122 --> 00:34:16,813 Today's 56? 563 00:34:16,847 --> 00:34:19,091 [Alan] I put that one on this morning. 564 00:34:19,126 --> 00:34:20,230 I do want to show you... 565 00:34:24,752 --> 00:34:25,994 You can open it up. 566 00:34:30,171 --> 00:34:31,483 This isn't like last time? 567 00:34:31,517 --> 00:34:33,485 You--is there a pregnancy test in here? 568 00:34:33,519 --> 00:34:35,590 - Not this time. - You remember when-- 569 00:34:35,625 --> 00:34:37,282 You remember when we were in Maine? 570 00:34:37,316 --> 00:34:38,628 This is better than a pregnancy test. 571 00:34:38,662 --> 00:34:40,664 I went to sit down for breakfast, and on the plate 572 00:34:40,699 --> 00:34:44,392 was a pregnancy test with the little positive thing. 573 00:34:44,427 --> 00:34:45,876 You'll receive this one better. 574 00:34:45,911 --> 00:34:48,327 Oh. Well, I was happy last time. 575 00:34:48,362 --> 00:34:50,640 I know. 576 00:34:50,674 --> 00:34:53,160 Yeah. 577 00:34:53,194 --> 00:34:54,954 Well, we can pay the house off. 578 00:34:56,577 --> 00:34:57,957 Is that what you want to do with it? 579 00:34:57,992 --> 00:34:58,958 No. I've thought about that. 580 00:34:58,993 --> 00:35:00,305 What do you really want to do with it? 581 00:35:00,339 --> 00:35:03,515 First thing I want to do is let Dad quit his job. 582 00:35:05,275 --> 00:35:08,623 He's taken care of me all his life, 583 00:35:08,658 --> 00:35:10,970 and Mom, so I want to take care of them, you know, 584 00:35:11,005 --> 00:35:13,870 make iere they can enjoy what they got left, 585 00:35:13,904 --> 00:35:15,768 and me, I don't need too much. 586 00:35:15,803 --> 00:35:18,771 Maybe see about getting Caleb's eye fixed too. 587 00:35:18,806 --> 00:35:20,877 My oldest son, he's been blind, since he was born, 588 00:35:20,911 --> 00:35:24,329 in one of his eyes, so maybe we can fix it. 589 00:35:24,363 --> 00:35:28,160 And then whatever's left we'll throw at the house. 590 00:35:28,195 --> 00:35:31,129 - Sounds good. - Yeah. 591 00:35:31,163 --> 00:35:33,752 - Yup. - Yeah. 592 00:35:33,786 --> 00:35:35,512 You want this spoon? 593 00:35:35,547 --> 00:35:37,238 Sure, let's take it. 594 00:35:38,550 --> 00:35:46,454 ♪ 595 00:36:17,451 --> 00:36:18,866 [man] Make sure your belts are on and-- 596 00:36:18,900 --> 00:36:20,039 everybody's on? You're good. 597 00:36:20,074 --> 00:36:21,075 - You're good? Okay. - Okay. 598 00:36:21,109 --> 00:36:22,076 - Good to go. - There we go. 599 00:36:22,110 --> 00:36:23,077 [man] Here we go. 600 00:36:23,111 --> 00:36:31,016 ♪ 601 00:37:59,587 --> 00:38:02,556 [man] Here wec]o. 602 00:38:02,590 --> 00:38:10,495 ♪ 603 00:38:17,778 --> 00:38:19,504 [woman] Hey, guys. 604 00:38:19,538 --> 00:38:20,643 Mama! Mama! 605 00:38:20,677 --> 00:38:23,024 Hi, how are you? 606 00:38:23,059 --> 00:38:27,201 Every single one of us hold a present. 607 00:38:27,235 --> 00:38:28,513 - How about that? - A real present. 608 00:38:28,547 --> 00:38:30,066 - Can we open it? - Give me a hug. 609 00:38:30,100 --> 00:38:31,412 Can we open it? 610 00:38:34,173 --> 00:38:36,383 [Alan] This feels strange. It's the first time I've driven. 611 00:38:36,417 --> 00:38:38,764 It just--that awareness that it's been a while, 612 00:38:38,799 --> 00:38:40,456 you know? 613 00:38:40,490 --> 00:38:42,734 Between flying there and all the transportation's 614 00:38:42,768 --> 00:38:45,081 been handled by other folks, it's the first time 615 00:38:45,115 --> 00:38:48,774 I've operated any type of machine since I started. 616 00:38:50,742 --> 00:38:54,262 [Alan voice-over] I think I'll come away from this looking at everything 617 00:38:54,297 --> 00:38:55,816 in a totally different light. 618 00:38:57,921 --> 00:38:59,613 Family and friends... 619 00:38:59,647 --> 00:39:00,717 [boy] Can I open it? 620 00:39:00,752 --> 00:39:04,514 [Alan] Food and how we consume it, 621 00:39:04,549 --> 00:39:06,205 and even little things, you know, 622 00:39:06,240 --> 00:39:08,242 that we take for granted in our daily lives 623 00:39:08,276 --> 00:39:10,002 like being able to turn a knob 624 00:39:10,037 --> 00:39:13,005 and clean water comes out. 625 00:39:13,040 --> 00:39:16,664 I've had a lot of time, just on a spiritual level, 626 00:39:16,699 --> 00:39:18,804 to analyze, you know, 627 00:39:18,839 --> 00:39:21,082 myself, my life, where I'm at. 628 00:39:23,050 --> 00:39:25,915 You know, one of my main priorities is being a father, 629 00:39:25,949 --> 00:39:26,985 and that's what I want to be, 630 00:39:27,019 --> 00:39:29,712 and I want to be a good one. 631 00:39:29,746 --> 00:39:33,371 Daddy? Seriously? 632 00:39:33,405 --> 00:39:36,166 - Peek-a-boo. - Daddy. 633 00:39:36,201 --> 00:39:40,619 - Daddy, look at your beard. - Daddy, look, presents. 634 00:39:40,654 --> 00:39:41,793 - How you been? - Daddy. 635 00:39:41,827 --> 00:39:43,242 - Hello, bearded. - Hello, bearded. 636 00:39:43,277 --> 00:39:46,487 Daddy, [indistinct] gave us a present to keep forever. 637 00:39:46,522 --> 00:39:47,833 How you doing, baby? 638 00:39:47,868 --> 00:39:49,110 Baby! 639 00:39:51,216 --> 00:39:52,562 I heard you hit your head. 640 00:39:52,597 --> 00:39:53,943 [boy] What happened-- 641 00:39:56,808 --> 00:39:58,119 I've been in the woods. 642 00:40:00,743 --> 00:40:02,607 - Thank you. - [inaudible]. 643 00:40:02,641 --> 00:40:04,402 [woman] They're beautiful. Brenda, did you know-- 644 00:40:04,436 --> 00:40:07,232 [Alan voice-over] Oh, the things we take for granted in life. 645 00:40:07,266 --> 00:40:09,441 [woman] We'll talk about that. Run over to daddy. 646 00:40:09,476 --> 00:40:10,787 [Alan] What do you think? 647 00:40:10,822 --> 00:40:12,617 [Alan voice-over] It's the little bitty stuff. 648 00:40:15,205 --> 00:40:17,207 We're gonna need somebody to hold the bag just like that. 649 00:40:17,242 --> 00:40:18,795 I will. 650 00:40:18,830 --> 00:40:21,695 There. You hold it like that. 651 00:40:21,729 --> 00:40:23,248 Can I put this pinecone in? 652 00:40:23,282 --> 00:40:25,423 [Alan voice-over] We are survival machines. 653 00:40:25,457 --> 00:40:30,255 My good friend Dave Connell said that to me. 654 00:40:31,774 --> 00:40:32,947 I like him. 655 00:40:32,982 --> 00:40:35,294 He said that we are survival machines, 656 00:40:35,329 --> 00:40:36,468 and I never thought about it, 657 00:40:36,503 --> 00:40:38,436 but when you look at human creatures, 658 00:40:38,470 --> 00:40:40,092 we are survival machines. 659 00:40:40,127 --> 00:40:43,613 Look at what the human spirit can do. 660 00:40:43,648 --> 00:40:45,581 I mean, you hear about these people 661 00:40:45,615 --> 00:40:48,584 that overcome just insurmountable odds 662 00:40:48,618 --> 00:40:51,483 and go through traumatic injuries, 663 00:40:51,518 --> 00:40:54,417 and they just persevere, and they just gut through it. 664 00:40:54,452 --> 00:40:55,832 You know, we're amazing. 665 00:40:55,867 --> 00:40:57,627 You know, we're amazing creations. 666 00:40:57,662 --> 00:41:00,388 You see the holes in it? Do you know what-- 667 00:41:00,423 --> 00:41:01,424 what happened to it? 668 00:41:01,459 --> 00:41:03,599 - What? - A bug came in and ate it. 669 00:41:03,633 --> 00:41:06,084 Not a bug, a slug. 670 00:41:06,118 --> 00:41:07,292 They're kind of like a bug. 671 00:41:07,326 --> 00:41:08,776 Dad! 672 00:41:08,811 --> 00:41:11,848 While I was gone, I ate a bunch of them on the island. 673 00:41:11,883 --> 00:41:13,954 I thought they tasted really good. 674 00:41:13,988 --> 00:41:16,232 Daddy, what are those? 675 00:41:16,266 --> 00:41:19,511 [Alan voice-over] Sure, there's those periods of adaptation. 676 00:41:19,546 --> 00:41:21,133 You kind of hit a wall, 677 00:41:21,168 --> 00:41:24,102 but then once you tune in to the new surroundings 678 00:41:24,136 --> 00:41:25,344 and things just start clicking, 679 00:41:25,379 --> 00:41:28,416 you just kind of--you adapt. 680 00:41:28,451 --> 00:41:30,142 We're amazing. 681 00:41:30,177 --> 00:41:32,179 People are just amazing. We just don't realize it. 682 00:41:32,213 --> 00:41:34,181 If you go bear hunting, you might even want to sharpen that. 683 00:41:34,215 --> 00:41:35,251 [Alan voice-over] It's all in there. 684 00:41:35,285 --> 00:41:36,804 You just have to get the right stimuli 685 00:41:36,839 --> 00:41:40,083 to bring it out of you to tap into it. 686 00:41:44,363 --> 00:41:46,434 Yeah, there's nothing like some time in the woods 687 00:41:46,469 --> 00:41:48,471 to really put life in perspective for you, 688 00:41:48,506 --> 00:41:51,578 I'll tell you. 689 00:41:51,612 --> 00:41:55,202 You got to get quiet, but I'll tell you, you know, 690 00:41:55,236 --> 00:41:58,136 time in the woods also makes you appreciate society. 691 00:41:58,170 --> 00:41:59,344 Let me see that bag. 692 00:41:59,378 --> 00:42:00,725 [Alan voice-over] You're not meant to be 693 00:42:00,759 --> 00:42:03,659 isolated or alone for a long period of time. 694 00:42:03,693 --> 00:42:05,246 It's just not in our DNA. 695 00:42:05,281 --> 00:42:06,558 It's not how we're wired. 696 00:42:06,593 --> 00:42:08,042 Look, we got some more over here. 697 00:42:10,562 --> 00:42:12,081 [Alan voice-over] There's really no place like home. 698 00:42:12,115 --> 00:42:14,117 There's no substitute for that. 699 00:42:22,505 --> 00:42:26,371 All the things that we make so much drama about 700 00:42:26,405 --> 00:42:28,753 don't mean a hill of beans, 701 00:42:28,787 --> 00:42:33,309 'cause we're all just passing through for a short time, 702 00:42:33,343 --> 00:42:35,829 and the stuff that we have all this anxiety 703 00:42:35,863 --> 00:42:38,970 and drama about and argue over 704 00:42:39,004 --> 00:42:40,385 means nothing. 705 00:42:42,732 --> 00:42:45,528 In the end it only comes down to love. 706 00:42:47,772 --> 00:42:51,948 That's really the only legacy you've got, I think, 707 00:42:51,983 --> 00:42:54,054 that last. 708 00:42:54,088 --> 00:42:55,469 The love you show your children, 709 00:42:55,503 --> 00:42:57,505 the love you show your friends-- that carries on. 710 00:42:57,540 --> 00:43:00,854 That ripples throughout eternity. 711 00:43:00,888 --> 00:43:03,166 The rest of it's just rubbish.